Gone Quiet

Well, things are certainly better now than they have been in days previous. While I am still not in the best mood, I am at least back in control, relatively speaking. One thing that helped was finally having a talk with my best friend that was long overdue. We talked about the directions in which our lives were going, which was a bit more in depth for me because I had never told him that I intend to go into politics instead of computer science. That may seem strange since, hell, even everyone I work with knew, but it is basically because I figured he would be disappointed in me. I'm not sure I can completely explain that whole feeling, but he wasn't, so it doesn't matter. There were a great many other topics, many of which were in regards to why I was in such a horrible mood before, so it was nice to get so much off my chest.

Ya know, I think I should explain some of that a little more, since a great many of you aren't familiar with my backstory. I had planned since I was incredibly young that I would be in the computer industry, specifically in research and development. It was they way that I thought that I could best improve the lives of, well honestly, everyone. However when the time came to earn the degree that would get me there, I realized it wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. A truly humbling moment to be sure. Instead I realized that I can best affect change in the ways I want by entering politics. I'm just glad I didn't come to all those conclusions while living thousands of miles away at one of the two other colleges that had been options (one of which would have been a complete failure after the change in major, the other of which would have maybe been the best option possible).

And ya know, I'll post it here so that it will still be around once the bulletin has dropped off everyone's page. I'm getting rid of two round trip tickets on the Victoria Clipper to anyone of my friends that may want them. They must be used by December 30th. Message me, call me, whatever. I thought the length of time in which I had to find a use for them would be sufficient. In this I was grossly mistaken. However I had remained optimistic, which in and of itself its somewhat unusual. Well this whole thing had a good vibe until I started talking about this, so I'm just gonna stop before I put myself into a bad mood....again.

The Stormy Present

Wow, it's 3:30 am and I can't sleep. There really should be an easy way to take out my agression (the places I would normally consider aren't open now), because hitting inanimate objects only serves to do bad things to my hand, and on occasion to the inaminate object that recieves the brunt of said agression.

Now this isn't to say that everything is bad, but I seem to be taking a few things personally that don't necessarily involve me. However as most of my friends know, I am fiercly loyal, and will do most anything for them. There is a reasonable chance this will get me into trouble someday, but such is life.

Well, I've tried writing this paragraph a bunch of times but nothing comes out right. That is probably due to the fact that I am simultaneously having massive inferiority AND superiority complexes. You cannot imagine how difficult that is to accomplish. Since I never go into many details in these (due to the public nature of the site), if you want to know what's really going on, all you have to do is ask.

So with that I leave you with a story:

This guy's walking down a street, when he falls in a hole. The walls are so steep. He
can't get out. A doctor passes by, and the guy shouts up "Hey you! Can you help me out?"
The doctor writes him a prescription, throws it down the hole and moves on. Then a priest
comes along and the guy shouts up "Father, I'm down in this hole, can you help me out?"
The priest writes out a prayer, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a friend
walks by. "Hey Joe, it's me, can you help me out?" And the friend jumps in the hole! Our
guy says "Are you stupid? Now we're both down here!" and the friend says, "Yeah, but I've
been down here before, and I know the way out.."

Not quite an accurate portrayal of what is going through my mind or anything, but a good description of what a person should do for there friends.