The past is gone, it went by like dusk to dawn.
Isn’t that the way, everybody’s got their dues in life to pay.
I know what nobody knows, where it comes and where it goes.
I know its everbody’s sin, you got to lose to know how to win.
Half my life is in books written pages, live and learn from fools and from sages.
You know its true, all the things come back to you.
Sing with me, sing for the years, sing for the laughter, sing for the tears.
Sing with me, if its just for today, maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away.
’Dream On’ - Aerosmith
Well now I’m completely out of ideas. I thought that for once the pieces had fallen into place. Its possible they still have, but the question is how hard can I fight for it without screwing things up. I think what will disappoint me most is if the thing that screwed me up, is something that I had literally no control over. Then again it was an issue to me at one time, and I got over it. However at the moment this looks to be a complete repeat of my last few tries. Hmmm...I suppose smarter people than I would have seen this coming.
At least tomorrow will bring good, though completely unrelated, news, and expect a phenomenally happy post talking about it.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
I'm Runnin' Down a Dream, That Never Would've Come To Me
Workin’ on a mystery, goin’ wherever it leads.
’Runnin’ Down a Dream’ - Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers
Last night I found myself at Gabriel/Matt/Dan’s place for an appearance at their St. Patrick’s Day party. I find it interesting that I would find myself in that same place, one year to the day since my epic failure of ’07 started. And I am once again attempting to understand just what is going on with myself and those I spend my time with. On the one hand, I don’t want to read too much into the same actions that I did last time around, because that only ended in my getting hurt pretty damned badly. But there is something different this time, or so I’d like to believe. Maybe soon I can give a real answer to the 17 people who wanted to know what’s going on. In spite of the uncertainty, I have been enjoying trying to figure this one out. I haven’t put myself on the line yet, I’ve just been having fun and seeing where this road leads. Anyway, enough of that, it was just good to be out seeing everyone. I really have missed so many of you.
In fact it worked out well because I basically got to see everyone yesterday, as I spent the first part of my evening up at Matt and Emily’s. Just sittin around playing games and chillin with everyone was awesome. The only thing that would have made yesterday better would have been if I hadn’t contracted the Ebola virus. I am currently in that part of the process that invovles wrapping myself in blankets and being a whiny little bitch. I’m sure this was brought on due to my expelling all remaining energy last night, but you know what, it was worth it. Now I attempt to summon just a little more energy, as something has already gone amiss today, and I’m not sure yet how to fix it.
And by the way, remember to tune in next time, where I will likely be telling a story that invovles at least three government agencies that generally go by three-letter acronyms. It looks like my arch-nemesis has returned, and so help me god, he will pay for what he’s done this time. No, this is not a joke, crazy shit be happenin.
’Runnin’ Down a Dream’ - Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers
Last night I found myself at Gabriel/Matt/Dan’s place for an appearance at their St. Patrick’s Day party. I find it interesting that I would find myself in that same place, one year to the day since my epic failure of ’07 started. And I am once again attempting to understand just what is going on with myself and those I spend my time with. On the one hand, I don’t want to read too much into the same actions that I did last time around, because that only ended in my getting hurt pretty damned badly. But there is something different this time, or so I’d like to believe. Maybe soon I can give a real answer to the 17 people who wanted to know what’s going on. In spite of the uncertainty, I have been enjoying trying to figure this one out. I haven’t put myself on the line yet, I’ve just been having fun and seeing where this road leads. Anyway, enough of that, it was just good to be out seeing everyone. I really have missed so many of you.
In fact it worked out well because I basically got to see everyone yesterday, as I spent the first part of my evening up at Matt and Emily’s. Just sittin around playing games and chillin with everyone was awesome. The only thing that would have made yesterday better would have been if I hadn’t contracted the Ebola virus. I am currently in that part of the process that invovles wrapping myself in blankets and being a whiny little bitch. I’m sure this was brought on due to my expelling all remaining energy last night, but you know what, it was worth it. Now I attempt to summon just a little more energy, as something has already gone amiss today, and I’m not sure yet how to fix it.
And by the way, remember to tune in next time, where I will likely be telling a story that invovles at least three government agencies that generally go by three-letter acronyms. It looks like my arch-nemesis has returned, and so help me god, he will pay for what he’s done this time. No, this is not a joke, crazy shit be happenin.
Monday, March 3, 2008
If You Want My Body, And You Think I'm Sexy, Come On Sugar Let Me Know
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me,
Come on honey tell me so.
'Do You Think I'm Sexy' - Rod Stewart
I hope you enjoyed that opening as much as I enjoyed writing it. So a few weeks ago I downloaded every top 100 Billboard hit from 1970-2004, including such gems as the above. Every time I open the folder I find something new that either just makes me laugh or shake my head.
So to say that a few things are going on would be a massive understatement. I am currently in the process of moving ot Capitol Hill. This of course means that the party that was promised all those months ago will finally come to fruition. Stay tuned for more details.
This move is going to be easier than most as I don't have to work while doing so. Things at work hit an all-time low, and while most are already aware, finally led to me being put on a final written warning (read: very bad), removed from my position, and now taking a vacation for a month or so. If everything goes as planned, I will find a new job once the move is done, and I will never step foot in that godforsaken place again. Hell, if things got so bad in the 48 hours after I left Friday as I have been led to believe, than I hope all of you reading this are able to escape as well.
As I tried to say, unsuccessfully I suppose, in my last blog, all of these things are positives, or will be positive once resolved. Makes me very interested to see how things will be this time next month. New house, new job, maybe more...who knows on that last point. I am putting a pretty decent amount of effort into my current pursuit, but the results have been, confusing to say the least. Well, more on that another time I suppose.
So last weekend my mom moved to Seattle (well, Federal Way, but whatever). Given how close we are, its nice to have her nearby again. It is funny to me though that after she told me what she'd been doing up here, my mind immediately threw out a 'worst-case scenario.' She has worked security at a decomissioned nuclear power plant, the Port of Longview, and now, the Port of Seattle. For some reason the first two (ok, just the first one, not much danger to be had in Longview) never really phased me. However now that she is a supervisor of container security (you know, the giant cargo boxes?), I actually did a double take, thinking that 'wow, she's really into some crazy shit.'
The only bad thing going on right now is some conflict between friends, that no one is quite sure how to deal with. Even now, I don't really know what to even write about it. I suppose bluntness is all that is required. Look for fireworks after the move is done, as despite my wanting to get everyone to shut the hell up, I'm not willing to deal with it while doing the move.
In another odd development, a very stupid person is attempting to weasel their way back into my family's lives. Most people I know now aren't familiar with the story of Rob Mallis, formerly my father's friend, formerly my mom's boyfriend, formerly my Aunt's husband, formerly the step-dad of the children I consider to be my own. You will notice a pattern there. Every one of those situations ended badly. I have had the distinct pleasure of having had no contact with him for a few years. However last night he attempted to use this very site to get in contact with Jessica, the one of the kids who hated him the most. For some reason, the story that comes to mind involves his eldest son, who for a time lived with the kids. He was involved in various drugs, which he decided to bring into the house. Now I generally leave people to their own devices on such things, but his actions were endangering my kids, so I informed him that my actions would very quickly be endangering him. Fortunately in that case my warnings were heeded. This time the sins of the father may be what provokes me.
Come on honey tell me so.
'Do You Think I'm Sexy' - Rod Stewart
I hope you enjoyed that opening as much as I enjoyed writing it. So a few weeks ago I downloaded every top 100 Billboard hit from 1970-2004, including such gems as the above. Every time I open the folder I find something new that either just makes me laugh or shake my head.
So to say that a few things are going on would be a massive understatement. I am currently in the process of moving ot Capitol Hill. This of course means that the party that was promised all those months ago will finally come to fruition. Stay tuned for more details.
This move is going to be easier than most as I don't have to work while doing so. Things at work hit an all-time low, and while most are already aware, finally led to me being put on a final written warning (read: very bad), removed from my position, and now taking a vacation for a month or so. If everything goes as planned, I will find a new job once the move is done, and I will never step foot in that godforsaken place again. Hell, if things got so bad in the 48 hours after I left Friday as I have been led to believe, than I hope all of you reading this are able to escape as well.
As I tried to say, unsuccessfully I suppose, in my last blog, all of these things are positives, or will be positive once resolved. Makes me very interested to see how things will be this time next month. New house, new job, maybe more...who knows on that last point. I am putting a pretty decent amount of effort into my current pursuit, but the results have been, confusing to say the least. Well, more on that another time I suppose.
So last weekend my mom moved to Seattle (well, Federal Way, but whatever). Given how close we are, its nice to have her nearby again. It is funny to me though that after she told me what she'd been doing up here, my mind immediately threw out a 'worst-case scenario.' She has worked security at a decomissioned nuclear power plant, the Port of Longview, and now, the Port of Seattle. For some reason the first two (ok, just the first one, not much danger to be had in Longview) never really phased me. However now that she is a supervisor of container security (you know, the giant cargo boxes?), I actually did a double take, thinking that 'wow, she's really into some crazy shit.'
The only bad thing going on right now is some conflict between friends, that no one is quite sure how to deal with. Even now, I don't really know what to even write about it. I suppose bluntness is all that is required. Look for fireworks after the move is done, as despite my wanting to get everyone to shut the hell up, I'm not willing to deal with it while doing the move.
In another odd development, a very stupid person is attempting to weasel their way back into my family's lives. Most people I know now aren't familiar with the story of Rob Mallis, formerly my father's friend, formerly my mom's boyfriend, formerly my Aunt's husband, formerly the step-dad of the children I consider to be my own. You will notice a pattern there. Every one of those situations ended badly. I have had the distinct pleasure of having had no contact with him for a few years. However last night he attempted to use this very site to get in contact with Jessica, the one of the kids who hated him the most. For some reason, the story that comes to mind involves his eldest son, who for a time lived with the kids. He was involved in various drugs, which he decided to bring into the house. Now I generally leave people to their own devices on such things, but his actions were endangering my kids, so I informed him that my actions would very quickly be endangering him. Fortunately in that case my warnings were heeded. This time the sins of the father may be what provokes me.
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