Well if your reading this, than your likely wondering what the hell is up with the subject. Millenia ago, inscribed at the Temple of Apollo at Delphi in Greece, were the words 'Know Thyself,' (side note: I attempted to make the subject show in Greek letters, but when I published it, it came out as something, well, it didn't look Greek to me, so back to the Roman alphabet it is, grrr.) Over the past week or so, I've had the opportunity to think about some things. You know when you get into one of those moods where you just start thinking about the past...well, that's what happened to me. Without going into all the details, I can say that I have come to the following conclusion: I have screwed myself up. I have trained myself to react to things in a certain way, to have a mindset about how events will play out, and it all has formed itself into a self-sustaining cycle. Now all this isn't to say I'm not a happy person or anything like that. All it says is that there is one area that for various reasons, I do not know how to fix. And to make it worse, talking about it with people cannot help. In fact I suppose I'm only writing this just for the hell of it. Only actions can fix it, but I don't know just what they should be. But then again, they do say that it isn't necessarily the destination, it is the journey...I have to put aside justifications, excuses, doubts, fears, hell, my entire past perhaps, and just make things work. For the few of you that might understand specifically what this is about, this might seem melodramatic, but with the amount of time I've had to think lately, it is anything but. To the rest of you that read this and sit dumbfounded in front of your screens, well, I'm not surprised. This is what you get for reading this totally random blog entry. Oh, and if your still here, I have the second part of my interview later this week. Stay tuned for details, video at 11.
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